I feel very tired nowadays.
Usually, I would be energetic after popping in all sorts of medication and supplements. Not these two weeks.
Here is a link of causes of fatigues from Yahoo Lifestyle.
http://in.lifestyle.yahoo.com/4-reasons-for-that-fatigue.html
It gives the idea of you gotta watch out for these 4 causes when your energy level constantly go low.
#1 Heart Trouble
#2 Low Thyroid
#3 Blood Imbalances
#4 Liver Issues
#2 is most unlikely as I have done related tests before. Though my heart says that the tests were wrong. *matilaaa x ngaku kuat makan. hahahaha...err.. :(
I suspect that my ESR has gone up again. I better make sure it comes down soon at least two months before my next appointment so that my methotrexate dosage would not be increased.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Holiday? I wish (-_-)
A friend from Singapore WhatsApp me today. She asked me if I want to join her for a holiday in Bali this June. Unfortunately, I have to take a raincheck.
For the past 3 months, I have spent and been spending soooooo much that to spend more would be bad luck for a superstitious me :(
To ease my heart, I went through few of my previous holiday photos on fb. It struck me that I have always been considering oversea locations for holidays. Another memory hit me. I told my drums coach that before my RA become worst, I would like to travel around Malaysia....and maybe try para-sailing in Jugra, somewhere near Klang I guess.
I suddenly remember a new location in Malaysia that I just learnt in a cyber interaction with a fitness instructor. During which, I did come across a blog. http://winnieyong.wordpress.com/2008/12/31/lenggong-perak-22/
Wow! There are so many beautiful places in Malaysia. Gua tempurung pon x masuk lagi okayyyy. And my dream visit of the canopy walk in Sepilok. http://blog.malaysia-asia.my/2010/01/canopy-walk-at-rainforest-discovery.html
But....
Uhuk!
I ma fucken fat. I am not that fit and I wanna die because I cannot do outdoor activities without risking hurting myself.
I wish I had died instead of taking my medications which caused my tremendous weight gain. :(((
For the past 3 months, I have spent and been spending soooooo much that to spend more would be bad luck for a superstitious me :(
To ease my heart, I went through few of my previous holiday photos on fb. It struck me that I have always been considering oversea locations for holidays. Another memory hit me. I told my drums coach that before my RA become worst, I would like to travel around Malaysia....and maybe try para-sailing in Jugra, somewhere near Klang I guess.
I suddenly remember a new location in Malaysia that I just learnt in a cyber interaction with a fitness instructor. During which, I did come across a blog. http://winnieyong.wordpress.com/2008/12/31/lenggong-perak-22/
Wow! There are so many beautiful places in Malaysia. Gua tempurung pon x masuk lagi okayyyy. And my dream visit of the canopy walk in Sepilok. http://blog.malaysia-asia.my/2010/01/canopy-walk-at-rainforest-discovery.html
But....
Uhuk!
I ma fucken fat. I am not that fit and I wanna die because I cannot do outdoor activities without risking hurting myself.
I wish I had died instead of taking my medications which caused my tremendous weight gain. :(((
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I haz a sad
Nope. It's nothing to do with mystical stuffs that love me and my crib at all.
Yesterday's evening was a quest for coconuts. Had three coconuts as I drank the juice of 3coconuts yesterday. All these are because i 'think' my swollen heavy eyes are due to my sinus. And the usual traditional remedy is the coconut juice.
My eyes are better this morning. Alhamdulillah. Coconut juice according to the elders are not good for the veins despite its 'antibiotic' effects on certain ailments. So this morning I am kinda stuck in between wanting to pop in the Celebrex pill into my gut or bathing myself in minyak urat. Aku ada rehumatoid arthritis ok. Painful ma....my fingers.
Yeah...those are my sadness. I m such a complainer.
Anyway, i didn't lie when i said that "It's nothing to do with mystical stuffs that love me and my crib at all."
Last night, I saw 'one' in Asaari's house. FYI, the last time I slept there, 'it' bit my back. Fak ya creature! I don't know. I feel unhappier and weak. I wonder what God has in store for me.
Heyyyyy!! Why is it alway 'what God has in store for me'???? Why not 'what God wants me to learn and overcome this time around'?!?! :)
:/
ps. watching Bruce lee's documentary on NatGeo channel reminds me of the 'whisperer' that was so confident that I will never pass the 30's age. Wallahualam. Janji, esok esok, mati dalam iman. x kesah lah kan :((
Sunday, January 22, 2012
I did not write because............
Hi there Diary!
Sorry for not writing for soooo long.
Been meaning to write like just before Ramadhan last year but there were too many distractions.
Ah well, this is MY diary so i should not be so apologetic huh...hehehe, considering that I have no followers unlike Hanis Zalikha kan?
Dear Diary....please don't be mad at me for such laaaaaaate entry. Firstly I ma gonna write about my feeling after the doctor increased my methotrexate. :(
I hate methotrexate. It is not as cool as taking meth! *mati laaa statement bodoh*
hahahadoii...pretty well exagerated huh? You see....being on 'medication that medication this' is never fun for anyone. You have makcik makcik leha jenab bedah kiah around you retorting your lamenting concern by giving that in between high pitch and guttural response - Sapaaaa laaaa nak sakittt....mujur la ada obattt!! (Nobody wants be to be sick, it's fortunate that you have medication for that).
I always thought that my RA flares are quite controlled as in its appearance is considered infrequent. My own observation says that it appears only if I accidently eat that maggot look-a-like of the soybean transformation, cabbage, expired seafood etc.
It would also make my life difficult if I were to first, make my blanket's job difficult on cold nights. I m one of those who cover my everything up except for my toes. Hahahaha. meow ;p
Honestly speaking, I felt rather frustrated because I did so many things to decrease my ESR. I don't understand why should the dose be increased. I don't wanna live with such high dosages. Even a friend's friend who suffers from Psoriasis Arthritis takes like 6 per week. I kept asking myself as I walked to the carpark from the pharmacy - Is this Doomed???
A cancer patient: Weyyyyh! Cut the ramble!
What's the dosage like.. you moron!?!?
This moron : Well, the doc increased it from 3 to 4 per week!
A cancer patient: *Punch! Thud! Thump!*
The moron now keeps quiet.................
Have a great holiday everyone :D
Sorry for not writing for soooo long.
Been meaning to write like just before Ramadhan last year but there were too many distractions.
Ah well, this is MY diary so i should not be so apologetic huh...hehehe, considering that I have no followers unlike Hanis Zalikha kan?
Dear Diary....please don't be mad at me for such laaaaaaate entry. Firstly I ma gonna write about my feeling after the doctor increased my methotrexate. :(
I hate methotrexate. It is not as cool as taking meth! *mati laaa statement bodoh*
hahahadoii...pretty well exagerated huh? You see....being on 'medication that medication this' is never fun for anyone. You have makcik makcik leha jenab bedah kiah around you retorting your lamenting concern by giving that in between high pitch and guttural response - Sapaaaa laaaa nak sakittt....mujur la ada obattt!! (Nobody wants be to be sick, it's fortunate that you have medication for that).
Muka buat2 kesah padahal bosan mendengar keluh-kesah kaki komplen :(
It would also make my life difficult if I were to first, make my blanket's job difficult on cold nights. I m one of those who cover my everything up except for my toes. Hahahaha. meow ;p
Honestly speaking, I felt rather frustrated because I did so many things to decrease my ESR. I don't understand why should the dose be increased. I don't wanna live with such high dosages. Even a friend's friend who suffers from Psoriasis Arthritis takes like 6 per week. I kept asking myself as I walked to the carpark from the pharmacy - Is this Doomed???
A cancer patient: Weyyyyh! Cut the ramble!
What's the dosage like.. you moron!?!?
This moron : Well, the doc increased it from 3 to 4 per week!
A cancer patient: *Punch! Thud! Thump!*
The moron now keeps quiet.................
Have a great holiday everyone :D
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