How is me today?
Fine. Thank you.
Fine eyh? Why are you wearing a frown then?
:’(
I don’t know what to think or do or even how to pretend anymore.
I try looking at myself, my problems from the point of view of an outsider.
a) Those who just knew me – “Poor you. Please get a proper medication and take a rest yah.”
b) Those who knew me less than 3 years –“Think positive mang!! You wouldn’t want to be labelled as a complainer. The whining will charge up the negative energy. You will never get out of that rut ya hear?!.” (exaggerated a bit lah here)
c) Those who knew me for more than 15years – “Please get a second opinion. You can’t stick to one or two doctors.”
d) Those who really know me and are families – “There is this one ustaz….blah blah blah..”
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A few minutes ago (now is 12.10pm) I almost hit my head on the class whiteboard. I intended to keep on hitting until I pass out. One wrong move of those near to me..I might just throw in a few slashes on the wrist.
*Restless*
This crawling pain that runs along the sinus area is driving me up the wall. Dah berkantung dah obat dik nonsss!!! There are too many medicines that I could do my own catalogue entry of these antihistamines and steroids.
I would love to end this piece with motivating words or even a quip (to me self). I just can't.
